I'm getting to that time in college where we actually have to figure out what we're going to do with our lives. Here I am, always having been confident in wanting to be an elementary teacher, now questioning everything I once was sure of.
i'm only 19 years old. My career is going to last longer than i've even been alive! how am i supposed to know what my whole life is going to be about?
I was talking with one of my best friends today, and he mentioned "life shouldn't involve planning, just living" and I totally agree. I'm sitting here, thinking about what i should major in, what kind of career I want and where I can live with that career choice. Plan plan plan. How can i get all i can out of life if I'm planning each part of it now?
My life, my grown up life is starting in a few short years. What will I do? Who will I be? I wish I could stay in this carefree phase of vibrant spontaneity in every aspect of my life, but I can't. It's time to actually make some decisions toward my future.
I guess it's all about balance, although I want to do everything under the sun with my life, I need to decide what my real life goals are, what I can do with what i've been given, and where He wants me to go with my life. Life can still be spontaneous, I can still dye my hair whenever I please, go on adventures anywhere and everywhere, and live. As long as i realize that's not what life is all about.
I know I can't make the whole world a better place, but I want to make a difference in my corner of society. When people ask me what i want to do, i can't explain it any better than that. Now it's just figuring out how, how can i do this and how can college to help me obtain that goal.
Woah, writing all of that actually helped a lot. Holy crap, I feel like i know how to think about all of this. YAY!
Sorry If none of this made sense, my brainwaves have been going in all directions about this all day. But i think i finally figured out how to put the puzzle together.
Now it's just a matter of finding where the pieces go!
Goodnight :)
"I know I can't make the whole world a better place, but I want to make a difference in my corner of society."
ReplyDeleteI hope you know, that even though you can't make the whole world a better place, but I can reassure you that you've made an impact on so many of your friends, and that what you've done for us will never forgotten <3
I really really like this post.
ReplyDeleteSome things were such total Sarah Language, but some of it was..very meaningful. It made sense in a very concrete way- and not even that will just help you. It helps other people too.
Rock on.
aww guys i love you both SO much :) thank you! all of that really does means a lot to meee!
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